It seems like any one who is worth their salt, meditates. I am very much a meditation dabbler, trying it here and there for a few days, but not committing to a practice, until recently. I discovered Insight Timer, an app featuring guided meditations and a community of meditators around the globe. I've been using it for the guided meditation, typically meditating for 6-10 minutes every morning.
Here are a few of my observations on meditation:
- Meditation is not easy! While I am in stillness, my mind wanders. I think about my to do list, my general life worries, what I should eat next, interactions I had, etc. When I notice this, I try to return to simply concentrating on my breath or focusing on the guided meditation.
- I thought meditation would bring me enlightening thoughts, but it hasn't! I am realizing that meditation isn't so much about some kind of breakthrough epiphany, but rather staying present. When they call meditation a practice, I think that is what they are referring to, the practice of staying present.
- Sometimes I fall asleep during meditation. This seems to defeat the purpose of it, but I also wake up feeling refreshed and happy. It feels nice to just let my body do what it wants to do. Thankfully, I don't beat myself up over falling asleep. At least the intention is there and maybe more than anything I need a few extra zzzs.
- It does take a lot of work for me to work it into my schedule. I have missed a few days. I am working on making it a daily habit, so far it hasn't completely stuck 100%.
These are my observations thus far on meditating. I am curious to know where this practice will take me. Will I have an breakthroughs? Will I begin to feel more calm? Will my negative thoughts have less of an effect on me? I have a feeling I'll find the answers to these questions on the meditation pillow.